I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.
Why you ask? Well because I WANT to hate you. In all my years of life (not too many but enough to know better) I have passed them trying to read people; why are they like that? Why don’t they tell why they feel? What is the reason behind the pain in his eyes but the cruelty in his eyes?- many many more questions, some of them just banish in the air, never spoken, never written… juts… forgotten.
It’s simply, I tend to forget so easy, that is why I keep trying to find the reason behind all the lies and forget all the bad and all the lies and everything. I don’t know why, I just born this way, isolated, separated; I cannot be categorized in the same as merely “humans”, I don’t feel special or superior, I’m just different beyond even my own comprehension.
Back to the main point; I normally forget those question and that person if I can’t be close enough to answer my doubts, or I just find the matter boring after some time, but why? How or in what way are you different? WHY I CAN’T FREAKING FORGET ABOUT YOU? Or why can’t I get close enough, or read your mind, your eyes, your movements? In what kind of armor are you hidden that I cannot penetrate or forget it?!! So … frustrating. I do not love you, no, I know that much (that’s SOOO reliving), but there is something! The existence of that armor, the merely existence of YOU will bug me even in my most precious sanctuary, my dreams. I normally have control over them but for some FUCKING reason you keep appearing in my dreams, always saying something idiotic, or ruining my mood or my dream, you always let me down in the end, in my dreams and in reality.
I want to hate you, and I do. Is just that I’m too good natured somehow and well you’re kind of my friend so I want to help I want to know you, and UGH! I want to FORGET about you once and for all, you get me in a weird mood, and you’re the only one capable of hurting me so easily, that is why I hate and that is why I want to get RID of you once and for all.
I just can’t.
Will you be kind enough to let me see trough you so I could … forget you?
